I'll be honest, I don't love it. It's not the people (I like them), it's me. I'm realizing I love control. I'm know I can't (and don't want to) control my housemates. My philosophy on living with people is: you affect me, good or bad, you affect me; and I affect you, good or bad. Sometimes we affect each other too much.
However, that being said, I do like WHY I'm living in community. For me, I'm doing this so that I can relieve a bit of financial pressure from the public health department of this rural county (have you heard? there's no money in public health) and only receive a small stipend each month for full time work. Then, that money goes into the house fund and we all pool our stipends together and live simply to support each other to volunteer in the community. I think this is a great way to do it. I like that I'm not getting money from other people, so I have more freedom- don't get me wrong, I think that can be a beautiful thing and I've supported people... I would just have to be 100% sure about the work and the organization (which I wasn't going into this).
With that, it does make me feel weird to think about living by myself again. I loooooove living by myself and I am sure that I will do it again. I miss the ownership and independence of it all. However, it will be different for me to spend that much money on just housing when (in all honesty) I could be sharing with someone and using that money for more worthwhile purposes. I'll have to see how I can justify to myself... I'm sure I'll figure out something!
But I do enjoy this...
...although hopefully people will come over for dinner, right?!?
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